I'm A Terrible Mom

Today was almost perfect day for me and my boy until the "stupid-idiot-bitch" show up her fugly face!! I got to say that "they" really have all the bad aura and whenever I see "their" face,  I feel like give her face a punch & spit on her fugly face!!!! Such a "sui" person indeed!

I felt really bad after scolding & scaring my child today..... I don't know what got into me?? Normally I can control my temper no matter which evil I saw but today, I guess the stupid-evil get the best of me & I wasn't really using my brain!!! I felt really frustrated & angry now!

How can I be the loving mother to my child??? I was suppose to be there to support & protect him but I was hurting him physically & emotionally... (>____< )  What is wrong with me?!! For a moment there I suddenly can't control my emotion & wasn't really thinking! I'm really a terrible mother....

I know baby J that I'm not a good mother but please forgive me.... I promise to do better for u in the future... Please forgive me baby J... I'm so sorry. And dear Jesus, please grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change and the courage to change the things I can, & the wisdom to know the difference. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.