Migraine

Oh dear, oh dear.... I think my migraine came back to haunt me again... This was the first symptom I got during my confinement and it didn't cure until now. Today's weather also not very good... too HOT! It may be causing my migraine to come back. The pain has become worst!!! Worst than before I got pregnant! :'( This isn't good!!!! I feel like my head going to explode!

Lucky, my baby is very good this evening. He was very co-operative... after feeding him breast-milk, he straight away goes to sleep. I manage to get some rest while waiting for my hubby to come home.

Guess what? My baby slept through the night until 12-ish a.m.! Brovo to him!!! :)

Thank you hubby for coming home to rescue. It helps a lot. Love you always & forever.

Happy Mummy's Day

Baby is 3 months and 1 day old

Today, I woke up at 9 a.m. (a little late coz normally 8.30 a.m.) and as usual the two fella were still sound asleep. I quietly went down to the kitchen to prepare and clean my baby's bottles, hang the clothes, make sure everything is clean in the living room before my baby wakes up (my usual chore in the morning). And finally, I prepare my breakfast before my baby wakes up.

As predicted, my baby wakes up before I even have time to finish my meal. Then, his daddy brought him downstairs to me... I knew he is not very patient with baby especially in the morning because he prefer to read his email / sms / comic / news than playing with his baby. So I quickly ate my meal and took over from him.

But before that, my hubby and baby wishes me Happy Mother's Day. . This is the first time I celebrated Mother's Day! :) Feel so old now... Anyway, I'm very happy because I am now a 'mummy' to my dear baby. I'm looking forward to spend many more happy mother's day with the two most important man to me.

As usual, my hubby did not prepare anything to celebrate "my day"... (~_~) All he can do is to bring me to his favourite bak-kut-teh restaurant and window shopping in a shopping mall... zzz.....zzzz..... How boring!

Now wonder his fucking-mother always complaining about his fucking-father... Now, I see clearly where he got the GENE from... from his hopeless and useless father! Oh God, I don't think I want to have such unromantic husband! :'(

As usual as well, baby getting very cranky as the hours goes by... I don't really have time to enjoy shopping or a proper meal... I don't even have time to check my sms... or read newspaper or magazine. So after dinner at a Japanese restaurant, we head home.

Back at home, I bath my dear baby and make him sleep.

There goes my 1st time celebrating Mother's day.... The end!

Happy Mother's day to you... Hope you got to spend a wonderful day with your family and not spend it so boringly like me.

Smitten with Terror

I'm not a good pretender.... I'm not good at it I admit.

It has been a few days I've buried this feeling inside me. I don't think I could stay stronger any longer... I couldn't sleep well and it has been disturbing me and my life. I'm really sad, worried and angered! How could they!!? These selfish idiots just won't give me and my family a break... like the saying goes, they would like to see you fall down than give u a helping hand... and I agreed with this statement.

I have a very strong urge to call my dad today and give him a few good words!!! One day he will just get it from me!!! How dare he brought those rubbish to my grandma house! and how dare him kee-poh around with my business with that bitch!!!

I don't care anymore!!! Respect my foot!!! These OLD folks think they are doing it for me but deep down they just equally stupid and being coward! They can't even handle their own problems... how can he even want to protect his own family(???). That's why I do not depend on him since young especially if I need moral support or personal advice!!! Yeah, the person whom I called dad does not act like one in my life... I'm very disappointed in him! That's why he always said, among all his children, he is less worry about me because I can managed on my own.

Also, the bitch who thinks she is the most important person in this world, I swear I will one day haunt you down!!! If not because of your son, I have already give this bitch a piece of my poop! This bitch has been going around with her pathetic stories and telling all sorts of non-sense asking for sympathy! How sickening!!!

From her shallow behaviour I do not think she has a life and I think she wants to see her son suffers... What on earth is this mother-fucker-bitch is doing to her son & his life??! I don't think she care neither! She is making me hate he even more and her doing & her shallow behaviour has makes me disrespect this old frat even low! I hope your son is receiving lots of "love" from your selfish behaviour! So called "mother"! puik..... !

The more we ignore her, the more nonsense she is making everyday to destroy my hubby's life!! I trust God & I believe God will take care of those evil people. What comes around, goes around. It's wise to just let God dealt with! I felt ashamed each time I mentioning about her immature attitude & behaviour!

Every time we wanted to move on & start fresh, this bitch will do something to destroy it! This will make me & my hubby hate her even more... and I think she knew it and enjoys it! I know I shall not care about her shallow behaviour or doings, but I'm just a person dealing with an evil here... an old-frat-evil! I also hope that my hubby would be more open to talk to me about his feelings anytime...

Dear Lord, please protect my family from those evil people. Keep them away from us. Please lead us to a safe and healthy way of finding our own happiness and peace. Almighty Lord, please guide us everyday on how to bring up our baby Your way. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

Time Out

I really hope that last week will never appear or repeat again in my life! It was such an annoying and agitating week for me! Aaarrrgghhh!!! Thank God I've got my dear hubby to support me and dear Jesus to shine His light at my path while all these things banging onto me.

Lucky thing was today is Sunday! All those were bygones now! I'm here looking for a little comfort... to patch up and repair all those wounds which has no good to me or my poor little soul. I guess a cup of hot coco or a piece of dark chocolate cake can help drown all my sorrows and problems away. Looking back, I really duno how I can survive all those nonsense!??

Before I forget, we celebrate our anniversary yesterday! This marked 1xth years that we are together as a couple! :) It has been a long and wonderful journey.... :) Nevertheless, it help to put all those nonsense away for a moment and let my poor soul recovered and get ready to fight again! :) Although it was just a simple celebration, we had fun and enjoyed it! :)

Thanks to dear hubby for the dinner (at a Taiwanese restaurant) although he did not planned it before hand (as always)... :P I guess the biggest comfort for the day was the scrumptious 'mango rolled in Mochi disc on top with coconut flakes' as our dessert... it was unexpectedly very good exceeded the main course.

And today, we had a fabulous buffet dinner (as post-celebration) at Hilton Hotel. I must say, it was really good! 2 thumbs up for their delicious food (and variety) and of course service!!! ^o^ We had a good time eating and relaxing at the restaurant. Mind you, we seldom go for buffet lunch or dinner as we afraid that the food might be disappointing but this one is surprisingly goood and the price was reasonable! I guess this wrap up all my lousy previous weeks and start new this week! :)

Hope y'all have a good weekend!

Gone Bananas

Problems on top of problems...! It seems like this is not my month after all.... >_<"

All the problems seems to roll in one by one each day... I do not know how much more I could handle, these "unforeseen" circumstances. Guess what? The cot which we ordered early this month got defects on them and the delivery guy who are suppose to find a new one for us did not call us in return. Bear in mind, we bought this cot from a reputable company who are suppose to care - the Mothercare shop.

So today, Mothercare suppose to deliver a new cot to our house to replace the defect one. It was so coincident that when they arrived, it rains cats and dogs! We do not know that the "cleaver" delivery guy bought the ready assemble cot in his truck!?? And it got wet when they open the back of the truck making it worst!!! So hubby reject it as it was very dirty, wet and still got defects on them! >_<>

When I think of it... it's just like a nightmare... I wonder do other parents also face this sort of problems while they are preparing for their newborn to arrival??? This month definitely not a good month for me! :'-( It started of quite ok but in between the road, it has a lot of humps in the middle.... I wonder when will all these nonsense going to end. If only my life could be made simpler. Btw, did I mentioned that I mistaken the appointment time for my gyne visit this month... *_*

You're Fired!

Not again...!!! Why are they (the confinement lady and part-time maid) kept giving me endless problems??? I'm getting very irritated and I'm tired dealing with all their shallow mind-set... >_<

Not that their services is any cheaper than others in the market price... and I still pay them promptly. I thought that by paying "double" of what the normal confinement lady charged would satisfied my confinement lady's greedy appetite to work but it seems that my confinement lady wants MORE!

After about 2 months from the agreed price and date, she agreed to work for me during my confinement period but now, just yesterday, she called to say that other people are charging more and she's not willing to work at the price she agreed on previously!!!! :0 What a greedy b****!!! You are telling me now... At this very last minute and my baby could pop anytime!! :S

I guess this is what the Cantonese are saying, "while you are ill, they will take your life"! This is what she is doing to me... She knew I'm desperately looking for someone to look after my baby yet she still do such nonsense to me. These people are very greedy!!!

Well, lucky thing was I did not depend so much on just her alone to look after my baby. I still have my back-up plan (thank God for that!). If I were to really just depend on one person alone I think I'll have heart attack!!! Serious! Normally I will think of the worst and then the best ways in solving my problems cause you never know which asshole will rack your plan last minute.

When life gives you lemon, just make lemonade! :-)

Dear O' Lord, please help me to go through all difficulties in life at this very moment. Please shed some light for me if I'm in the dark tunnel. Thank you Lord for all that you have done for me so far. Please continue to bless me and my family especially my baby which is still in my womb. We need your loving care and attention as always. Lastly, please forgive my sin and please show me the right from wrong. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

Lousy Maid

I never thought that hiring a part-time maid could be so inconvenient and nonsense!!! Not only they are not helpful, they create all sorts of nonsense excuses to you!! >_< I can just named a few examples to you:
1. why we need to mop the floor twice, it's tiring for me...
2. I cut my finger I can't work.. (the cut is just tiny and you are not going to bleed to death)
3. outside it very hot I don't want to work...
4. can you give me ang pow (i.e. tips) my boss pays me very little only every week...
5. I came from the king's heritage/decedent back in Indon... (so?? here is not Indon...) and etc. etc.

Can you believe this??? I have to go through these nonsense every week! :$ The job they are suppose to do is not done properly (never mind) but they have all sorts of request and most of the times they try to work VERY slow so that the time can passes by quickly and they do not need to get "more" work done!

It was such a nuisance to hire a part-time maid nowadays as they are not only damn LAZY but with a terrible one-of-a-kind attitude! Moreover, their so called "boss" who is suppose to keep track of their performance and managed customers' satisfaction failed terribly in doing both tasks. Seemed like the maid is his boss and vice-versa.

Moreover, it adds more headache for me each week when the maid come to my house for their service! As I requested form the beginning that I want the same maid to come each week but the "boss" failed to provide me a reliable maid. FYI, I've encountered more than 20 maids from just this one company alone!!! Moreover, I suspect the boss asked his maid to work slowly so that they can charged overtime charges!!! This is so unethical!

What on earth these lazy bitches doing in my house if they do not want to work??!!!! I'm getting really irritated by their boss excuses saying that the maid are afraid of working in my house. Bear in mind that the maid you provide is either rejected from agency or does not have a valid working permit in this country (i.e. either their permit been canceled by their previous employer or they are here on visitor visa... so working hard does not apply here coz they really treat themselves as "VISITOR" not worker). Therefore, if the maid is not up to the minimum standard, of course they give a lot of excuses to their stupid boss complaining about the customer being fussy!!! This is a TOTAL NONSENSE!

No wonder there are a lot of cases where the maid (especially those INDONESIAN maid) is being abuse either physically or verbally by their employer. Sometimes you really just can't stand their irritating attitude and they know BEST how to irritate you! So this is both ways... I don't blame those employer who abuse their maid... cause I know some ppl may not be as patient as me. I've been dealing with all these nuisance for about 5 months now and it's getting worst each day!!! +_+

If any of you out there looking for a part-time maid services don't ever go to this company - Daily Cleaning Services or maybe you will recognized by their name/contact - they called themselves Mr/Mrs Tan, 010 231 1605 or 012 491 1162. Their service is lousy! I tired it and dissatisfied with it. Hope you will not hv to face this kind of rubbish services.

No More Nonsense

I am incredibly saddened and angered by the way my parents always rely on me to take care of my sisters' and or brother's shit! I have to say I always go all 100% to help whenever I can but this is just too much now... they basically just treat me like thier slave! I never receive any appreciations in return (not even a thank you) not that I longed for any rewards from them but they are just being ignorant little bastard!!!! Is this how a family should operate??? I don't think so. I also need support sometimes but I never get it in the end.

My parents will always call me whenever there's shit happened amongst them!! And I'm the only one who will have to help take care of their shit! Furthermore, they don't even care what have they done and still continue doing those shitty stuff they are well trained of! Can you imagine I have to gone through such nonsense with all these nonsense ppl!!! I got my own life too! Why can't they figure it out on how to survive in this world??? They are not less fortunate than any ppl other there, so why can't they figure it out on how to survive??? When you look at how others family worked, they don't have all these shit in their family... they will be very supportive to each other no matter what. I miss this kind of family warmth.

So why can't they handle their own life until now!?? None of them ever wonder or borther to help me when I'm in trouble?!! This is all useless sibblings!!! I will never from now on to helo them with anything anymore!!! They shd learn to live their own life and take care of their own shit from now on!

Recently, my mum told me that my sister is planning to go to Aus (again!!!!)... according to her nonsense, she wants to go there to find a job... as if here they don't have any job for her... and as if she has made a lot from here dy. This time I think she is there to have more fun than the pervious years... and make more shit too!!

Enough is enough!!!!!!!! I'll also need to learn to say 'NO' to my parents from now on!

The Joy of Giving

Recently, my hubby and I have been thinking about buying a bigger fridge since my mum said that my old fridge (still back then it's called National) is too small to store anything (can only fit a small size bird in the freezer section I think). I have to agreed with her because when we bought this old fridge it was just for the two of us and now we are expecting a third member into our family & I think we should get at least a bigger ones so that more food could be kept in the cold storage.

Since then, we have been scouting for a new but not-so-big-size fridge... To our joy, during the last year Dec sale, we were lucky to hv found the fridge that we want (not too big nor small... just nice) and with more discounts!!! :D Well, like always, without further-ado hubby said let's get this fridge now! And that's when we bought a new 2-doors fridge (now new name called Panasonic) into out home. However, we had one problem back in our kitchen... what are we going to do with the old fridge since there's no trade in from the store and our house is not big enough to fit in another box of machine??!?

So, I decided to give it away to my granny as I remembered that my mum told me that my granny's fridge is tearing and wearing out but she is still using it (!??). It is not as cold as it should be and the food which is stored inside is not really fresh. Then, I decided to asked my uncle to come and pick the fridge from me to deliver it to my granny... who knows what happens later... the next thing I know after a few weeks later, when I visited my grandma recently, I still see the old fridge standing on the exact location as before in her kitchen but my fridge that I gave her were no where to be found. Then only I found out from my mom, my uncle had brought the fridge back to his own house for his own use. What an Ass H***!!! :<>

Nevertheless, it will not stop us from giving... Recently, hubby and I decided to donate an amount of money to charity (the homeless children association) in conjunction to his birthday and baby's goodwill. I feel good that we can finally able to do at least something for the society especially the homeless children which were abandon by their parents. I wish them all the best in their study and life.

Tragedy

Today, after I saw the CMD, I noticed that I have some bleeding (terrible shock!!!). In the morning, I was still ok but after seeing the doc, even he says he can see some very minor dot at the screen but he still say to me not to be too optimistic about this pregnancy. Although, I felt very uncertain about what the doc said I still try to keep an optimistic mind about it. At that time of screening, I felt some minor pain at my lower abdominal area but during the 'titik' at that time I already can sense the pain. The pain become a little sever during the 3-ish pm.... Then in the toilet, I can see quite a lot of blood in my panty and I become worried... I called up my doc assistant and told him about the incident and he just told me "just rest more". I was sure that when I hear him saying the 3 little words, my heart crumbled....

Dear Lord Jesus, please give me the right mind-set and strenght to get through this difficult phase of pregnancy (1st trimester). Please keep our embroy safe and health at where he should be. Although I'm still having this pain inside me dear Jesus, I wish that it could live through the difficult time inside my weak body. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.