Period Due?

I really duno what to expect anymore... with my unstable health condition sometimes I really think I'm not suitable to be a mother. With the traumatic experience I once had is enough to put off the thinking that I may be pregnant again... ever again. Though it was just a brief period of pregnancy (some term it as chemical pregnancy), I felt the pain both physically (actual blood oozing out from my body) and emotionally. It's very hard for me to accept at first but then when I starting to accept the fact that I'm pregnant it was gone! This sadden me very deeply... although I didn't show it much to the people around me.

Somemore, my hubby is not that kind of "patient" type of husband nor father (this has also due to the "care-less" family history coming from his father)... I'm afraid that the history may repeat by itself like last time when I first expected but later on miscarriage. Part of the reason of the miscarriage were also due to my hubby being very "annoying" and "inconsiderate". He knew that I do not allow him to consume meat during his meal and nevertheless, he still testing my temper on him on that day (I can still remember it very clearly on that day at the chinese restaurant)... this is how the whole bleding, pain and miscarriage happened. All at once!!!...... I was terrified!!!

As you know, most preganat woment are very vulnarable at this early stage of pregnancy, their emotion are not stable like they used to be. Yet, some husband are not considerate enough to see through that. I blame it on him which give such little knowledge on how to care for your expecting wife. Not only they don't try to do anything to help ease the burden of their wife, but they add FIRE to their wife's burden making it a big DISASTER! In the end, both are looser.

Sigh* I do not mean to dwell on the past but this incident really had scared me very deeply and I'm afraid to face the situation again. I always admire those husbands who are understanding and caring enough to their wives. They give the right support to their wives. So they are the most happy couple I've always envy.