If you've found yourself shrieking at your child — and regretting it — this advice is for you.
WebMD Commentary from "Good Housekeeping" Magazine
By Julie Taylor
My
husband, our two kids, and I were enjoying an idyllic trip to Hawaii,
driving up the winding (and dangerous) Road to Hana and taking in the
beauty of the cliffs and coastline. And then it happened. For no
apparent reason, my son, then age 5, threw a water bottle from the
backseat toward my husband, and it hit the windshield with a ferocious
bang. By some miracle, we didn't crash, but we did lose
control...big-time. Both my husband and I were ranting, raving,
screaming, threatening: "
Why would you do that? Don't you know we could have been
killed? Here we are taking you on the vacation of a lifetime, and you
throw a water bottle for
no reason?" And on and on we went, spewing way more venom than our
preschooler could ever deserve or even comprehend, for that matter.
Tears began rolling down our son's cheeks, and his lip quivered
as he fought back sobs. After what I'm sure seemed like an eternity to
him, we calmed down and continued on our way, and I tried to bury the
incident in the back of my mind.
I had almost forgotten all about it when, a few weeks later, I
replayed our Hawaii-trip video. There I was, recording a waterfall out
the window of the car. I tucked the camera into its bag — accidentally
leaving it still recording — and then the "water bottle incident"
occurred. Though the screen was black, I heard my husband and myself
screaming at our son, badgering him, shaming him.
Then it was my turn to fight back tears. How could I have freaked out like that in front of my kids,
at
my kid? The rant sounded so much more vicious and vile than I
remembered its having been, but there it was on tape — proof that I was
the worst mother in the world. I may have erased that incident from the
vacation video, but I don't think I'll ever be able to erase it from my
memory.
Like it or not, most of us parents flip out in front of our
dear children from time to time. Sometimes the anger is aimed at them,
other times not, but it's almost always a deeply unsettling experience.
Fortunately, there are simple — sometimes surprising — steps you can
take to repair the damage, not to mention avoid meltdowns in the future.
The High Price of Losing It
First, recognize that regularly lashing out at or in front of
your kids isn't par for the parenting course. It can do some very real
damage to their psyches, says psychologist Matthew McKay, Ph.D., a
professor at the Wright Institute in Berkeley, CA, and coauthor of
When Anger Hurts Your Kids.
"Studies have shown that parents who express a lot of anger in front of
their kids end up with less empathetic children. These kids are more
aggressive and more depressed than peers from calmer families, and they
perform worse in school. Anger has a way of undermining a kid's ability
to adapt to the world," McKay says.
Gulp. And the younger the kid, the bigger the impact, experts
say. "When children are little, you're their universe," says
psychologist Robert Puff, Ph.D., author of
Anger Work: How to Express Your Anger and Still Be Kind.
"When you get angry, their world is shaken. By the time they get older,
they have friends and other people in their lives to turn to, and that
minimizes the impact." Also worth noting: The occasional, nonabusive
freak-out is generally much less damaging than regular fireworks, which
send a child the message that he or she is not safe and that there's
something wrong with him, says McKay.
That said, kids can actually learn an important lesson from
seeing you lose your temper and then regain your cool. "This provides an
opportunity to show kids that we all get angry, but what really counts
is how we repair things afterward," says McKay. Here, the step-by-steps
for doing just that.
When You Shriek at Your Kids
Real-mom meltdown: When Jennifer*, of Huntington Beach,
CA, went to visit Disneyland with her three kids, she didn't realize the
"happiest place on Earth" would be the setting for one of her ugliest
parenting moments. "It was a big outing for us, and the park was very
hot and crowded that day," she recalls. "Two of my kids have cystic
fibrosis and could use a special pass to bypass the lines. But my
13-year-old went and lost his. Out of nowhere, I yelled, 'You've got to
be bleeping kidding me. What the hell is wrong with you?' Immediately,
my son started to cry. He had never heard me swear or be so mean to him,
and he was devastated. Everyone standing around us was looking at me in
disgust. I had to keep apologizing. Tears were streaming down my face
because I had obviously hurt him so much."
A University of New Hampshire study found that 90 percent of
parents admitted to having hollered at their children, ages 2 to 12,
within the course of a year (the other 10 percent must have either been
angels or had selective memories).
To avoid a scream-fest, try this trick: In that white-hot
moment of anger, visualize your child as a baby, says Sandra P. Thomas,
Ph.D., a professor at the University of Tennessee, Knoxville, and
coauthor of
Use Your Anger: A Woman's Guide to Empowerment.
"Older kids and teens are not adorable like babies, and sometimes they
can be very obnoxious," she explains. "When you remember them as the
babies they once were, that can do some good."
So can taking a break. "If you're able, take a time-out and
walk into another room, even if it's just for a minute or two," says
psychologist Laura J. Petracek, Ph.D., author of
The Anger Workbook for Women. The key here is getting some literal distance from the situation and recovering your sense of calm.
If your anger has already boiled over, the most important thing
now is to own up to what you've done wrong. Don't give in to the
temptation to blame your child for triggering your outburst. "Say, 'I am
very disappointed at your carelessness, but I shouldn't have yelled
like that. It was wrong for me to lose it in that way, and I'm very
sorry,' " advises Thomas. (Tip: Don't overdo the apology — if you dwell
on it, it can make a kid feel as if he's truly been victimized.) Then
promise that you will try your best not to do it again, comfort your
child as needed, and move on.
When You Spar With Your Spouse
Real-mom meltdown: Angie*, of Seattle, says life has been
particularly stressful since her husband lost his job — and their
arguments sometimes play out in front of daughter Lexi, age 3. "Just
last night, I was yelling at him for not cleaning the house," she
confesses. "Lexi came over, tugged on my shirt, and said, 'Be nice to
Daddy.' The look in her eyes was one of terror; it stopped me in my
tracks. We eventually made up and tried to assure her that Mommy and
Daddy still loved each other, but I don't know if she bought it."
It can be devastating for a child to see her parents get
furious with each other, warns Charles Spielberger, Ph.D., a
psychologist who specializes in the study of anger at the University of
South Florida. It's important to circle back quickly and do damage
control. Don't try to explain the situation away by reciting a laundry
list of ways in which your spouse provoked you — this will only further
embroil your children in the drama and stress. "Instead, you might say,
'I was really mad at your dad earlier. We've talked about it, and we're
working it out. People who live together get angry sometimes. We're
sorry for yelling. We still love each other,' " Thomas recommends. Even
if you still want to throttle your spouse, telling your kids you are
smoothing things over will help ease their fears and make them feel more
secure.
If you can, emphasize what you'll do differently next time,
says Jerry Deffenbacher, Ph.D., professor of psychology at Colorado
State University, who studies anger issues; this will help a child learn
from the experience. For instance: "I was mad that your dad burned the
garlic bread, but I apologize; I shouldn't have shouted at him like
that. I was frazzled from a really hard day. Next time, we'll remember
to set the kitchen timer when we use the oven."
Keep further comments to a minimum. Overexplain yourself, and
you could wind up turning your kid into a mediator or therapist,
cautions Puff. There's no need to drag her even deeper into your drama.
When You Argue With a Stranger
Real-mom meltdown: While Fiona*, of Detroit, was buckling
her youngest son into his car seat after a trip to a bakery, an older
driver pulled up near her and began honking. "He was screaming, 'Close
your f— door!' without having given me any warning that I was blocking
his spot. I raged right back, 'Can't you see I'm putting my baby in his
car seat, you $%*#@?!' My tween in the backseat was pretty rattled by my
outburst, and I felt horrible about it."
Your first instinct might be to apologize to your kids for
having gotten mad — but don't. Everyone gets angry, so you shouldn't be
sorry for having experienced this emotion. (This is especially important
if you have daughters — girls from a young age are told they shouldn't
show anger, says Puff, encouraging them to bottle up their feelings.)
Instead, tell the kids what set you off. Explains McKay: "You
might say, 'That man said something that really hurt my feelings, and I
got very upset.' " Next, apologize for how you expressed your anger.
"Make sure they know that swearing — or whatever you did — was not the
appropriate reaction," says Thomas. "Emphasize that you would never want
them to act that way." Also say you are sorry if your outburst scared
or embarrassed them. (Let's face it — it probably did.) Explain that you
let your emotions get the best of you, and that you'll handle it better
next time. And then comes the real challenge: making sure that you do.
Short-Circuiting Your Anger
To keep your cool going forward, follow these ground rules:
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Ask the right question When a child is being difficult and your temper is about to flare, follow this advice from McKay: Instead of thinking, Why is he doing this to me?,
focus on the child; he's probably acting out for a reason. Is he
hungry, bored, tired, or in need of attention? Try to meet his need
instead of letting your anger get the best of you.
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Keep an anger journal that documents when you lose your
cool. "Look for patterns — what time of day do you get angriest? Under
what circumstances?" advises Deffenbacher. "Once you identify those
anger 'flash points' in your life, brainstorm ways to minimize them."
You can even get your kids in on the act: Say, "It irritates me when you
ignore your chores — how can we make this a better situation?" By
giving your kids a voice, you're empowering them to be part of the
solution.
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Minimize marriage spats "In a calm moment, you and your
spouse should agree to handle your next argument differently,"
Deffenbacher says. "Give yourselves permission to walk away if you're
getting too angry in front of the kids. Develop a code word for when you
are getting really mad, and let that signal that you'll discuss the
issue later, in private, when you're calmer."
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Talk through your emotions out loud when you're with
your kids and a stranger annoys you. "Say, 'Wow, that person just cut me
off — how rude! But maybe there's an emergency she had to deal with, or
she just didn't see me. Whatever the case, I'm not going to let it ruin
my day,' " recommends Deffenbacher. By doing this, you're modeling how
to handle life's everyday frustrations — and how to control your anger
before it controls you.
Do You Have an Anger-Management Issue?
Could you be past "hot-tempered" and into the realm of needing
professional help? Jerry Deffenbacher, Ph.D., shares warning signs:
- You lose your temper several times a week, even daily
- Your anger is causing problems in your relationship with your spouse or your kids
- When angry, you engage in dysfunctional behaviors such as drinking too much
If this sounds all too familiar, ask your doctor or religious
leader for a reference to a counselor, or consult these anger-management
resources:
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The Anger Management Sourcebook, by Glenn R. Schiraldi, Ph.D., and Melissa Hallmark Kerr
- The National Anger Management Association (namass.org), a website that provides a state-by-state directory of trained therapists.
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